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In all this time I have tried not to bore my reader with articles about the writing process, such as:  ‘What not to do’ or ‘How to…’, and so on. Now, however, I have the task of publicising the book, getting people to buy it, read it and review it on Amazon.

The first thing I’d like to say, is that you don’t need a Kindle, to read a Kindle e-book. All you need is the ap., which you can find here. This ap. can be installed on a laptop, desktop, notebook, tablet or smart phone, so get it now, then go here to download my book. Do this now,

buy my book immediately

before you finish reading this article or go to the bathroom or open a bottle of wine or eat a chocolate truffle.


Be Careful What You Wish For, crime, divorce, children, men, women

Here it is. If you click on the above picture you will find yourself on the Mardibooks website, where you can also buy it. Then you’ll have two copies!

Anyway, to the nub of the matter, the plot: Three women, unhappy in their marriages, decide to leave their husbands and form a commune, sharing childcare and following their dreams.  Of course life never goes as planned and as we follow the three, and their husbands, all coping with the stress of raising children and forming new relationships, we begin to sense disaster lurking. The women begin to die. Who, we wonder, is responsible. Is something sinister going on, or is it just a terrible coincidence?

I’m trying to think of a funny story that relates to the writing of this novel but I can’t think of anything. The process has been serious, a learning journey, not like me at all!




Black Widows

Backforth House is an unlikely care home that hides at the end of a residential road, its side butting against a scrubby, rubbishy mound of railway embankment. From the pavement, if you ignore the gawking residents, it is exactly like the rest of the Victorian, terraced street: three houses knocked inappropriately into one, higgledy-piggledy home.

Margaret Lewis, a stalwart volunteer, tries with her mid-life hearing, to catch what’s being said in the lounge as she passes, dragged towards a window in the next room by Caroline, a beloved resident. This excited woman-child wants to share something impossible to articulate. As Margaret’s portly body sweeps past an anxiously huddled group of staff she can catch only a few grave words from Matron, but the words are enough to fill her with dread.

‘The bank has refused…’

Margaret’s head lags behind, her neck craning and her arms stretched to their limit, while her legs run the course of Caroline’s desired route, but she can catch no more. Eventually, captor and captive, arrive at a tall sash window. Its frames are bolted together to prevent any ‘unfortunate’ accidents, and layers of paint almost obliterate the crack that once allowed the top and bottom to slide independently and give the stuffy room access to fragrant, fresh air.

Grunting, Caroline presses her forehead to the glass, putting her arm round Margaret’s neck to force her attention to the view. With her cheek uncomfortably distorted against Caroline’s shoulder Margaret contemplates the garden and thinks, not for the first time, how regrettable is the state of it. She’s been hatching a plan to recruit her two best friends, Celia and Marion, to tidy it up. There are some lovely trees and shrubs; it would only take a couple of weekends’ solid work to make it right then they could all sit out there on sunny days. The residents would love that, especially Caroline.

Caroline’s greatest interest, apart from an insatiable desire to steal other people’s food, is to watch the birds that swoop in the air, or peck and bob in the garden. On outings, Caroline’s attention must be diverted from the sky or progress is almost impossible.

The object of current exuberance is a Raven. It sits on a waving branch a few feet from the window. Suddenly Caroline releases Margaret and launches herself back into the lounge, galloping round the room excitedly. Margaret straightens her hair and blouse while the raven takes off in alarm.

If the ravens leave….


In a tearoom in town, three middle-aged widows, Margaret amongst them, are taking tea.

‘Bloody bureaucracy.’ Marion stretches a slender arm for the teapot and drains the last of it into her cup. She opens her mouth, revealing a set of cream coloured teeth which she deploys to remove a large chunk from her slice of Victoria sponge. She chews crossly.

Margaret would have liked a cup of tea too – and a cake. Marion is so lucky, she can eat whatever she likes. Margaret screws round in her seat hoping to catch the eye of a waitress. Why do they always look the other way when you want them?

She returns her attention to her companions.

‘Well, there’s not much we can do. If the bank won’t lend them the money then that’s it. End of story.’

‘How much do they need?’ Marion sucks crumbs from her fingertips with lips that put Margaret in mind of the bit of a balloon that shrivels round the knot.

‘£150,000, I believe.’

The small tea room clatters and murmurs. Margaret tries again to find a waitress. Her neck begins to ache and she turns back again, massaging it.

‘D’you think we could raise it?’

‘I’ve always wanted to do a sky dive.’ The two women stare at the third member of their trio.

‘A sky dive, Celia; with your condition?’

Margaret takes a worried breath. Powerful emotions usually invoke in catalectic Celia, the instant collapse of her supporting muscles, as though someone has pushed up her base. A sky dive would probably have the same effect; if the narcolepsy didn’t get her first.

Celia’s face begins to droop.

‘I’ve got her.’ Marion leaps to the back of Celia’s chair and catches her friend by the armpits. ‘I’ve got you Celia, don’t worry.’ She leans closer to Celia’s ear,


Celia slurs,


While they wait for Celia to recover, Margaret thinks about the residents in Backforth House. Apart from Caroline, her favourite because she is so funny and happy in her own little world, there’s plump Michael who won’t speak to anyone but shouts at the television, and Louise who sits and rocks in a corner, her hands clenched in perpetual prayer. None of them are visited by families; the only people to care about them are the staff, and Margaret.

Margaret started going to the home when her daughter Charlotte was offered a place there. Charlotte was born 30 years ago with every complication imaginable. When they realised they couldn’t give Charlotte everything she needed, Margaret and her husband, Gerald, dejectedly visited dozens of unsuitable care homes across the county and beyond. As soon as they stepped into Backforth House, though, they knew it was the right place.

Gerald and Charlotte are both gone now but Margaret still visits. Backforth House is her second home and the residents and staff, her family.

‘I don’t think a sky dive would raise enough money, anyway. We need a campaign, something to invoke indignation across the country,’ she says.

‘We cd wite soo Bill Gates.’ Celia is coming round, sluggishly.

‘Is it his sort of thing? I’ll check on the internet when I get home.’ Marion is a bit of a whiz on the computer, if somewhat gungho.

‘Let’s sleep on it.’ Margaret doesn’t hold out much hope.


The phone is ringing. Margaret drags herself from profound slumber and fumbles for her glasses.

‘Hello?’ She squints at the clock: 2.30am.

‘Maggy, it’s Marion.’

‘Marion. It’s 2.30. What’s wrong?’ Margaret’s voice is husky with sleep.

‘Nothing, nothing,’ the voice is impatient, ‘I’ve had an idea.’

Margaret yawns. ‘Couldn’t it wait ’til morning?’ She reaches for her water and knocks it over – damn, and pulls out a handful of tissues to dab at the puddle.

‘Let’s rob the bank. You know? The one that refused the money.’

Margaret’s hand freezes in mid-air,

‘Don’t be ridiculous. We can’t do that.’

‘Yes – we can. Who would suspect three middle-aged, middle class ladies of robbing a bank?

‘Go back to sleep, Marion, you’re bonkers.’


Celia is slumped over Marion’s kitchen table.

‘Look, how could she rob a bank? You just suggested it and she’s gone!’ Margaret ducks her head at Celia.

‘Well, we’ll need someone to drive the getaway vehicle.’

‘No, Marion. If it’s to be done, we’ll have to do it alone.’ What is she saying?

‘So you’ll do it?’

Margaret pictures Caroline, galloping round the room. ‘Maybe.’

Marion becomes business-like. ‘I’ve thought of everything. We’re going to need disguises, built-up shoes, replica guns and recording equipment. Oh, and we need to steal a car.’


In the drive of a suburban house somewhere far from home, Margaret is shivering beside a darkly gleaming Ford Mondeo.

‘How on earth do you know all this Marion?’ she whispers.

It is pitch dark. 2am again as a matter of fact. The two women are dressed in black. Short, wide Margaret sports a natty black track suit and bobble hat while tall, slender Celia manages to be elegant even in criminal camouflage.

‘OK, just a small hole here.’ Ignoring her co-conspiritor’s question, Marion dips her head to aim the beam of her head torch onto the spot, and places the tip of her drill just below the door lock. The tool shrieks in the night silence and Margaret looks around wildly, but all is peaceful.

‘And pull the handle’ Marion’s voice is calm as the car door opens revealing deep shadows within. ‘That worked.’ She draws a can of stuff from her rucksack and passes it to Margaret. ‘Spray this on the number plates; it’ll make them unreadable by cameras.’

With a pounding pulse Margaret obeys, while Marion climbs into the driver’s seat and begins to fumble behind the dashboard. As Margaret climbs in beside her the engine thrums into life.

‘The wonders of the internet,’ Marion’s face breaks into a wicked grin.

Cruising along empty roads Margaret starts to laugh. Marion explodes into giggles and they snort hysterically for several minutes.

‘Stop!’ Marion begs, ‘I’m going to wet myself!’

‘Don’t do that, you’ll leave forensic evidence on the seat.’

They hoot again and continue to giggle on and off until they get to Celia’s house. The garage is open and they roll in, pull the door closed from inside and step into Celia’s hallway via the adjoining entrance.

Celia is in the lotus position in the middle of the kitchen floor. She stops her humming for a moment.

‘Please don’t tell me about it. Is the car in the garage? Ommmmm’

They nod.

‘OK, good night.’ Celia resumes the hum; her eyes are closed.

Margaret and Marion start along the hall.

As they reach the front door Celia calls after them.

‘Night,’ then, after a slight pause, ‘I did want to do a sky dive though. Ommmmmm.’


Bank clerk William Child, known ironically as Billy the Kid, is hungry. A cheese and pickle sandwich and bag of salt and vinegar crisps await his attention in the staff room downstairs.

His two fellow cashiers are hauling bags of recently delivered coins and notes downstairs to the vault, while Billy counts the cash in his till.

There’s movement at the front door and Billy raises his eyes. A couple of slightly weird looking men have entered. Billy’s stomach gurgles like a faulty radiator, and he tries not to think of food.

One of the men, wide, with long legs and a bushy beard, approaches the till with a shambling bearing. Billy smiles unenthusiastically as the fellow’s hirsute visage looms before him through the glass.

‘Reach for the sta-a-ars.’ The voice of Woody, from Toy Story, escapes from somewhere about the body of the bearded man and to Billy’s further alarm and disbelief, a gun appears from deep within the enormous coat, it’s nozzle directed at his head.

A loud bang causes Billy’s heart to pump and his arms to shoot, without argument, towards the ceiling. Once he is sure that he is alive, though, he observes with a mixture of relief and trepidation that the explosive noise has come from the slamming front door. Billy’s errant stomach rumbles again and his bladder is suddenly unbearably full.

There’s an alarm button under his counter but Billy, his arms still aloft, has no intention of pressing it.

The bearded man holds up a large holdall and gestures to Billy to take it. Billy lowers his hands to unlock his security window, and shakily takes the bag.

An American man’s voice, later he will earn that is the voice of Rythm and Blues singer, Johnny Gill, announces, ‘One hundred and fifty thousand.’

‘You want £150,000?’

The man nods.

The second man jiggles from foot to foot beside the closed front door.

Billy begins, in accordance with his training, to load the smallest denominations into the bag first. The gun waves threateningly and Billy’s hand shoots to the £50 notes.

‘I’m not sure how much I’ve got in here,’ he wavers.

The American voice repeats, ‘One hundred and fifty thousand.’

‘OK, OK.’ He loads in fifties, twenties, tens and fives. There is actually quite a lot of cash in his till because Mason’s, the jeweller, and Partridges mini-market, have just paid in. Behind him the remains of the Securicor delivery sits waiting for his colleagues to return. The gun points to a bag of notes and Billy adds it to the haul and passes the bag of loot towards the gloved hands of the strange man.

The second man opens the door and they both hobble out. As they leave Billy could swear he hears the voice of Tommy Cooper saying,

‘Thank you very much.’

Billy’s colleagues come clumping noisily up the stairs, discussing football. Billy presses the alarm.

A few moments later, two middle-aged ladies emerge from the gents in Victoria Park. They giggle a bit, looking embarrassed that they have gone in the wrong loo. A young man twinkles at them sympathetically then forgets them in his urgency.

The sound of sirens comes from the High Street but the ladies, who have arrived in a blue Mondeo, climb into a Fiat Cinquecento and drive demurely away.


‘The thieving bastards! If you can’t trust a bank to give you the right money then who can you trust?’ Marion glares at the piles of cash lined up on the coffee table in Celia’s living room. They are £2,305 short.

‘Well, he did say he wasn’t sure how much he had.’ Margaret defended the young man, who had nice eyes and wavy hair that reminded her of Gerald when he was young.

‘Well I’m not robbing another bank…’ explodes Marion.


They are dressed in overalls. The harnesses weigh heavy on their backs.

Margaret is chanting a mantra to herself,

‘it’s safer than crossing the road. It’s safer than crossing the road.’

Three instructors wearing khaki siren suits, sit opposite them looking relaxed and amused.

‘OK, ladies, it’s time to get ready.’

Margaret pauses her chanting to swallow.

‘I can’t believe I’m doing this!’

‘Me neither.’ Marion nods down the tiny gangway. ‘Just look at her.’ Celia is slumped on her knees with her bottom in the air and her forehead resting on the floor. It’s been quite a battle to persuade the sky diving company to let Celia come along. The friends had to sign disclaimers and Marion flirted despicably with the paunchy and bespectacled manager.

The instructors stand up and Margaret and Marion follow suit. It feels wobbly underfoot. Margaret and Marion heave the drooping body of Celia upright and between them all they manage to strap her onto one of the men. Their harnesses are yanked and tightened, and Celia is attached to her solid and youthful professional.

Below them – very far below, the entire staff and residents of Backforth House can be seen in the bright sunshine. A tiny Caroline is galloping round the edge of the group with a nurse in pursuit. Flags wave and the faint sound of the brass band wafts up to them over the drone of the small plane.

‘Ready then? Marion is grinning at Margaret.

‘I can’t believe I’m actually…’

‘Shut up Maggy and jump. 1, 2, 3 Geronimo-o-o!’

I Cooked it up

(copyright Sue Nicholls. Just ask and link back if you want to use it)

I’ve lost the urge for cooking, I think I’m round the bend,

I love to eat and entertain my family and friends,

But when I think about it, it’s not the will to sup,

I’ve lost, Oh no not that at all, it’s the b….y washing up!

If I were rich, apart from having chauffeur, plane and pilot,

I’d have a maid to wash and launder all my pots and privates,

He or she would live next door and like a glass of wine,

I’d cook a sumptuous dinner and invite her round to dine,

And as the night drew to a close, the greatest of my wishes,

Would be fulfilled as I relaxed and he washed up the dishes.


Don’t you hate to sit in the sun and see those conkers growing and hailing in the autumn?

(copyright Sue Nicholls. Just ask and link back if you want to use it)



Prickly gonads in frilly leaf underwear,

Waiting to drop.

Suspended reminders,

That these balmy, aimless, dreaming days,

Face warmed,

Bird song,

Will die,



I wrote this for my mum on her 80th birthday so it belongs to her. That said I’m sure she won’t mind.

My mum wrote a book about her childhood so that her grand children would realise how different life was when she was young. I found the whole process of editing the book and looking at her pictures incredibly moving and this poem just flowed out.

Copyright Sue Nicholls – no copies please

I am here,

Crossing the time-cusp between my precious daughters and you, my mother,

One day I shall be you,

Once I was them,

Once YOU were them and you were me.

You have filled our lives with your personality,

Your sureness, your sociability and your sun-warmth,

I should not be me, but for you,

I pass you on to my children and they will pass you to theirs.

Your pictures! The limp baby held on the kiss crossed legs of a fuzzy haired sister,

A flossy headed, shy little squirt with back buckled knees,

A skinny, shining girl clutching a silken spaniel and squinting into the sun,

How is that you?

Is that grubby, glowing child still there?

And what of me, when I am sitting there, where you now sit?

Will I have the courage to carry myself proudly, disregarding my discomfort?

Washing it away with whisky, cream and butter,

And planning, always planning for the future.

I aim to follow your example to the letter,

One day, my children will be proud of me as I am of you,

And when they ask me how I came to be thus, I will explain,

Your grandmother, Gemma, taught me.